


iNeed You To Know

by sincerely sunshine



Category: iCarly
Genre: Angst
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2010-04-12
Updated: 2010-04-12
Packaged: 2013-12-18 14:12:09
Rating: T
Chapters: 1
Words: 357
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5891955/1/
Author URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/563163/sincerely-sunshine
Summary: one-shot sam puckett-centric. - Samantha Puckett has secrets she wouldn't dare tell.





	iNeed You To Know

i worked hard on this, and i would appreciate reviews, comments, critique, anything!

_linoleum secrets_  
- i'm not through the night . . .

and she's so confused  
why their eyes question what their mouths never say  
or their brains connect-  
that she can be so tiny, so thin, so skinny  
for the amount of food she hoards.  
and she thinks they just don't get it.

nobody _fucking_ gets it,  
because they're just too blind, too distracted, too selfish  
to care that  
she eats  
and binges  
and neurotically eats out every one's fridge  
and then steadies herself above the bowl and braces herself  
(because she knows it's fucking wrong and  
she's just destroying what's left of her former shell)  
and pukes until she can feel her bones pressing against her skin  
trying to shred through and show the world and  
show the world how truly fucking ugly she is.

and she lies down on the cold linoleum,  
with bile tangling her hair,  
and she thinks she's a little more beautiful,  
until she remembers that she's not _her_  
(whom has this sort of flawless beauty  
with bouncing brunette curls that just destroys  
every nerve, every fibre, every heart string she has  
because all _she_ needs to do is look at some one to wrap them around  
her slender, little, fucking finger)  
and **he's** looking at _her_, and wanting _her_, and lusting for _her_.

because it's all about _her_, and her anxiety attacks  
because _she_ needs her life to be fucking perfect,  
while she's rocking back and forth, crying and  
sh-sh-sh-shaking and she thinks she's going to die,  
but she never gets what she wants,  
and so she just feels _empty_ . . .

she's a master at lies (but fast metabolism  
and after school fights can only go so far)  
and so she knows no one ever sees through her deception.  
but she thinks for once that she craves for some one to notice.

and then she realizes that she's samantha puckett.  
and samantha puckett never shows her weaknesses.  
so she takes them to the grave.


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